Advice needed: i want to kill my mother

advice needed: i want to kill my mother:i got this in my email this afternoon i decided to publish it…. read below……………..
i am 25 years old, the first issue of my parents. am very active in church,use to dedicate my time more on church activities than any other thing in this world.
it happens that my two younger sisters are wayward…they sleep around with men for money. my mum do support them because they bring her expensive gifts from their boyfriends and sugar daddy…my father is late now…..(weeping:just wish he is alive). we dont have any male child.

male child. my mum hates me because of my dedication to church activities. one day she invited to a resturant and introduced me to one mr john,she said he asked her to bring me that he want to marry me… i begin to like him he was really so kind to me…..
one afternoon…he came over my place my mum was around…she took him inside her room they talked like about thirty minutes….and they came to my room..i and mr john was chatiing,my mum went to her room and brought a drink…she shared the drink…first to me…i drank it with trust….my man refuse to drink that he dont feel like drinking he needs alcohol…my mum went in with the drink nd brought alcohol for me..they where drinking and that was the last thing i could remember before i slept… so sad…..it was my mums plan for mr john to impregnant me so i bear a son ….
i didnt know i was pregnant till in two months time…i missed my period in the first month..i thought is health issue because i just recoverd from thyphiod..because am very sure i didnt have sex….in the two months i took my mum phone to text mr john on his attitude these days…behold i saw this text
” hello john thank you so much for the job on her…hope she will get pregnant soon?i didnt know that concotion and  drink i gave her could be this active…”
the second read thought ” john after you come and collect your remaing 35,000 if am sure she is pregnant….”
i confronted my mum and she knelt down crying i should forgive her…….where is my faith? my church? my pride? RIGHT NOW AM PLOTIING OF POISIONING HER FOOD…WANT HER DEAD…MY MAIN MAN WHO WANT TO REALLY MARRY ME IS VERY SERIOUS ON ME…BUT SEE THE CONDITION MY MUM HAVE KEPT ME…AM SO DOWN…AM GONNA KILL HER…..SHE IS A DEVIL